Is it a Flaw? Or a blessing?

Dear readers,...

After a few serious postings - yess i labelled all work-about postings as "serious postings", now i will write about a few blessings i have in life...

I called it a blessing,while some people said, it is one of my biggest flaw..
Now, let me tell you why...

You all know how 'extrovert' i am .. i am open minded, laugh and smile a lot, straight talking.. and even though i can be super introvert in certain condition.. but.. it is easy to make friends with me. I have plenty of acquaintances,, lots of friends, and a few very very good friends.. (and yessss.. i am very picky when it comes to close friends.. )

and the blessing that i call is also one of my flaw.. it is when i care too much...
Yess, when i care too much..

At the beginning, i m  raised and  taught to care for others.. and i dont expect anything as a return. It is my habit to greet other people, starting from saying good morning, ask how are they doing, and smile to them too. For those who have met me, you all know that i really look like any other indonesian, so lots of people would feel that my face looks so familiar to them and i might remind them to any family members, friends, acquaintance or others. When we get quite close, most of the times they tell me their little secrets, one and another.. and to be frank, sometimes its a burden, but most of the time its a blessing for me.. an opportunity to look into things from different angle..

And again, i feel so blessed. However, sometimes in life, we cant make all people happy.. We cant expect others to see and understand what we do or what our intentions are...
We just cant, frankly...

In some cases i have put my limit, try to control what i feel, how I should behave, how I should react toward lots of things that doesnt seems to be right..
I have start another journey, which is not entirely me.. or correction - which is considered to be more what common - metropolis-people do..
I have try to do my utmost to become a stiff ignorant person, into things that i shouldnt put my hand into... Yes i have try to limit what i should have done long time ago..
Considering that it is one way for not upsetting the applecart..

I always think, if we can be good, why should we do bad?
It is so true that we cant save the entire universe, But, we have to try to do our utmost..
Yess.. i think i might have care too much..
Maybe... I think if i do good, it will return good...
And of course, the result will be good for others too..

But again, i dont know whether i can call it a blessing, a flaw or my plus point..
It all depends on what angle you are looking..
At the end of the day, its ours that count, isnt it..

well,, is it a flaw, or a blessing ?
You tell me.. :)

Role and Responsibilities - new chapter, new beginning...

Dear Readers, 

Its been  a while for me not posting something a bit serious... 
Yes... im trying hard to cope with my new role in the office. 

I finally got challenged.. remember my previous posting here, after his successor arrive, this new guy have decided to take me in to his team.   He gave me some new role, as a recruitment officer and assist him in several other things, which in some ways are quite multitasking-job. 

According to Wikipedia role is : 
"a set of connected behaviours, rights, obligations, beliefs, and norms as conceptualised by people in a social situation. It is an expected or free or continuously changing behaviour and may have a given individual social status or social position. It is vital to both functionalist and interactionist understandings of society"

So, considering the above, it is quite clear what role is all about. 

My role as mentioned above is something new to me, which need more time for me to understand the whole thing. it simply means i have to start over the whole things... i need to manage my self, how to cope with it.. Extra responsibilities (Based on business dictionary, responsibility is A duty or obligation to satisfactorily perform or complete a task (assigned by someone, or created by one's own promise or circumstances) that one must fulfill, and which has a consequent penalty for failure) for who i am now..

The moving process is not easy, far than simple as i have list of people who thinks that i am not worth any penny for the new role and getting new responsibilities. Still carrying an old one, i always think that it is the learning process.

I learn that somehow, we can try to do out utmost, and it may not be enough..
And we just have to do it once more.. I think my new boss knows that i  am trying to do my utmost, and if i do it wrongly I will go straight to him, confess and try to do better.

Got my ears chews , and my only goal is how to get things done in a right way. Seems that under him i got even more focus at work.. Extra hours for sure, but i find my self challenged for something new.. I found list of what m KPI is.. I even have schedule for one week long..

I am exhausted, but feel challenged and I cant be challenged.. i have to finish what i started.. at least this is a good opportunity for me to jump and learn something new.

I found obstacles, testpackers, unpleasant comments, but I put all of them aside. .

I learn that when we are trying hard to move forwards, this might have create instability to other people who are connected to us in some ways.. And until they find their balance, inconvenience exist .
That is when i have choose, whether to stay or find my new balance.. to move on,, And of course.. I choose to move forward, whatever it takes... What relieve me is when hubby support me fully... And again.. i remember QS 55 : 13 - Fabbi ayyi a'laa irabbikumaa tukadzzibaan...

At the end..

I am thankful for what i have, and for what i am

Matur suwun sanget, gusti Allah, for all the blessings..

#jatisari, 31st Jan 2015
in my sweet bed 

When a mother, its not just a 'mother'...

Dear Readers,

Its been a while for me being a silent reader for this endless topic..
A working mom.. is it an option or a choice? or Neither one of them?

Let see it from different angles, ladies..

First of all, being a mother.. is not easy..
Its far from being easy.. It carries big responsibilities, from the day you are carrying the fetus inside.
Things change... Priorities change... even the person change...

For working mom, its even worse.. Time management is essential.. so much until sometimes, you forget to have time for yourself.. You forget the fact that you are having a -centre of your universe to be- in which make you even a lot more special than before.. So, having this Gift from God, means that you have to treat yourself better than before..  

For some of you, working is more than just to have your self esteem.. it is more than that.. you might need to make your living.. maybe, your spouse just didnt make it enough for you to reach a proper lifestyle. I have to stay proper, since the standard is different for every house. Or, you might have set your own goal in life.. and you need to work harder to achieve it... as i mentioned, not everyone has a privilege to be a stay-at-home mom.. 

Some might able to say.. Well you can try to work from home as free consultant, member of Multi Level Marketing, having an online shop, and the list are adding up... 

But, its not easy as well..              

Let me tell you something, Parenting is not something that you pick up from nowhere.. It is earn.. its an option as well.. Being a mother is always a full-time job.. doesnt really matter whether you are a working mom or stay-at-home mom. You are still a mother whether you are there or not.. There are advantages and disadvantages for every position you are in..  Quality of parenting is not a relative measure.. It doesnt mean when you are growing up with a working-mom, you'll be worse than the other who grow-up with a stay-at-home mom, just because there are more constraints of time. 

I dont know about you, but for me, living in a male-dominated-world,I always believe that there are risk that you take for everything. So, whether you are a working-mom or stay-at-home mom, both are highly respected career. I must say, HIGHLY RESPECTED, as not everyone is gifted to experience as a mother. And there are no such standard, on how you can be called as a good mother.. this is for real.. 

All of us, are trying hard to raise them rite, according to our standard. 
That is why, we have to choose, we have to decide, we have to try harder on how to work things out.. Sometimes, we even have sacrifices to reach our goal, and none of us really care about it. Because as a mother, we all have the same purpose.. to bring our children, raise them well enough, set them ready to face the world.. 

My writings will not be judgmental, on whether you are a working mom or stay-at-home mom. Both are moms, and none of us have the rights to make any negative comments about it.. I mean it.. 

Seriously.. i think we should stand together, hand-in-hand, realizing that we, mothers of the next generation have the same purpose, to raise them well, so they can create a better world.. 

I believe that we already got headache with lots of things, and we shouldnt add some more in our head... 

Stop judging, help others when you are able to do so.. After all, we are have the same purpose, rite... Why should be make a fuss in a little things and forgetting the bigger picture? 

Its not easy being a working mom (trust me, i am a working mom.. ); and I know that being a stay-at-home mom, is not easy as well.. 

So, i respect both, and i hope everyone else do too.. 


Nitey-nitey, everyone.. 

#written as part of my concern of an endless silly discussions
18 jan 2015






                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             

The bosses - some (not too) short stories...

Dear Readers,

Setelah beberapa postingan mengharu biru tentang departures and departures, yang mana hal itu masih berlanjut sampai sekarang... #hikz...

Tapi sekarang.... ijinkan saya mengupas beberapa orang yang untuk saya masuk dalam urutan - The Bosses.. Yes, the bosses, alias para atasan..

Tentu saja, sejalan waktu, saya tidak bisa memuat semuanya.. to be frank.. Those who meant a lot to me, in a way that even though i am no longer work with them, they cross my mind from time to time..

Well, let me start from the beginning :

1. RR Graham

He is my direct Supervisor who happens to be Head of Virology Department at US NAMRU - 2 .
Iya,.. diawal karir, emang saya kerja di US NAMRU (Naval Medical Research Unit), iya.. yang sekarang dibekukan itu lho.. (abaikan sinisme saya.. ) It might be because i love that place so much..more that any other can understand.. dan jangan berani pertanyakan nasionalisme saya ya.. :) .. as None has the rights to do so..

Well, kembali ke bahasan awal. Dr G, begitu panggilan sayang saya ke beliau.. He is the first boss who taught me that you have to fight on what you believe.. that skills are earns, as its never given...
Sebagai anak bawang.. saya memulai dari awal banget.. as I start as a data entry..

Iya, saya, yang lulusan D1 jurusan Public Relation, tetiba harus kutak katik data.. well.. data base - dan pada waktu itu program yang digunakan adalah Paradox.. sementara, pengetahuan komputer saya ya basic banget...

And, you wont believe what he did - He brought me like a pile of books - all in English.. Remember that at that time i was just 18 years old.. with my basic ability to speak, read and write in English :D ..
And of course, as always, I am a fighter.. I bought my dictionaries, read more, read the manual of the program, spend at least 9 hours a day .. and I did it..

At the beginning, I express my concern to him... how i found some difficulties in doing the task he gave me, but again he said... skills... are earn.. even if you have to struggle to understand.. spend extra hours, just do it..

Dan saya nunut apa kata babe itu.. ketimbang kualat #eh ...
Maksudnya.. ya emang bener sih yang diomong...

Ok - to cut the story short, i managed to follow his instruction, doing this and that.. wes opo ae dikerja'ke.. sing penting halal dannnn... Stay with him for 1,5 years...  During my tenure, he took me to assist DB projects in Yogya.. and to be frank.. until now.. its uncomparable..

Spending two weeks on your own.. while you are single in Jogja is really irreplaceable... disitu saya beneran jatuh cinta sama jogja.... Its like i belong to that place..  (now im back to years ago... :) ..)

So, we are moving on to my 2nd boss - one of the my most fave men on earth..

2. His name is Torstein Hallaraker.. Yes, he is scandinavian, the Vikings - came from Norway or more exact place..

I was introduced to him by my colleagues at N2. He need to have a Junior Secretary in his humble office. Funny things, when i first met him, i can see how a sincere person he is. The look, the attitude even the way he speaks all represent goodness in a person...

I know that it seems that i worship him.. Well, its not that.. far from that.. Its like im pretty amazed on the trust that he gave to me.. a young, nobody, very junior person.... and i appreciate it.

He taught me how to be me.. he put a strong foundation, along with some other people..
He shows integrity and how to be a real person.. never fake never took parts in bad things, and what i amazed is how he shows his tolerance with other people from many nationalities. He taught me from drafting a letter, conducting meetings until how to do "basa-basi" in some luncheon... He introduced me to high level personnels, bring me to important meetings... and he taught me how to be me.. how to be a sincere person.. and lots of things which are beyond words.

Back in 98, he actually plan to resign from his post in Indonesia. Well, in 1998, you know how hot Jakarta was..

So in May 98, where riots start in Jakarta, i was fled (yess, im using the hard word) to his place in Kemang.. where he shares the town house with my ex colleague from N-2.. Where my ex colleagues lend me some clothes and money as well - just to ensure that i have enough supply... I cant express how i felt with words , considering whats going on that time.

To cut the story short, we keep our relationship as it is until now. Last time i met him was in Surabaya, 10 years ago... (how time flies), where he look exactly like last time before i met him....
Still firm when i shake his hand,  and last news is that he is still conducting some training in Surabaya..

The third boss that gave good impact to me is my previous Director Hans Glipman. After Tor's departure, and having so many people coming in and out as my boss, apparently he's the first person i encounter whom i can speak freely, and off course in a good manner too.

He start his tenure in late 2010 and left at a sudden, early May last year. His departure is surely miss.. He is the one who introduce us how to do things in mannered..  If i may say, not that the rest didnt have manner, but he surely has given good example, ensure that everyone respect each other, even teach some high levels how to communicate effectively, and off course in a good mannered...

I found him a good leader, in a way that he can be quite firm yet, also very easy to be understood - in which i found with TH before. It is so funny how i can easily knock on his door, and even call him before he call me, from time to time. So, when some people are questioning about our relationship, its purely friendship and colleagues... And i enjoy it a lot..

To be frank, being straight spoken, a real me,  can only be practiced to both Tor and him.. he offers solution where we all in a cul-de-sac, where most bosses are saving their own asses... (thank goodness i've never encountered one like that - not my direct boss)... I enjoy friendly gestures, sincere greetings, even just sharing cookies or chocolate bars... And, im not the only one who have such a courtesy... We both believe, that is how you create a healthy work environment.. Its how you do things - hand in hand... when one problem arise, solve it, dont put it too long in a tray, dont upset the applecart, and try to speak in a very positive tone, so your counterpart will be very convenient when communicating with you..

Well, my last but not least boss is an Indonesian.. BTS - thats his nickname.. and he really is, one of his kind... SERIOUSLY..

I've never met someone with such strong, positive attitude.. Not to mentioned he is a modern muslim too.. i must say, i've never admire anyone in such way like him..

Why?

He always be able to see things clearly.. not that close, but even from the distance, he will not only use the logic, but try to see the person thoroughly..

When dealing with female employees, he was very careful, and deal with us in a very high manner, full of consideration, as he sees us as a mother, a wife and a woman in Islam, where he put as as priorities.. See the best solution according qur'an and sunnah.. even sending me inspiring morning messages...

For him, i am speechless.. He is a good colleagues, and funny boss too.. why funny? he does most of admin work which he suppose to give us.. and Now i know why he comes home aft 9 pm, most of the time.. to cover all works that he suppose to share.. #sigh..

From him, I learn less in the corporate side, but i learn how to live in a good way.. how to treat others in goodness, to think positively - all the time, again,... to be firm but managed to deliver it in such an elegant way.. He speaks very little, laugh and smile a lot.. and how you maintain a good relation to your creator,,,

The point is.. i learn a lot... the main thing that i learn from all of my dear bosses is..

Do good, not because you want to, but you need to...
they all taught me that, in a bottomline..


Well, finally i finish it..
I finally able to list down the top 4 that make me realize,, that life is full of blessings,
That no matter what, you have to do good, not because you want to, but you need to,,,
That at the end of the day, its not only the result that counts.. but process too..
That we are all, important..

Thank you for reading, everyone...
May you all have a good and nice evening..

-jatisari, 15 Jan 2015-

for all my dear bosses,
May life treats you kind,
May god give you all his blessings
May God fills you with joy and happiness, all the time..
Aamiin yaa rabbal aalamiin..

Ayam Bumbu Bali - the signature #tsaaahhh

Selamat malam semuaaa,,


Iya, iya ngerti ini New Year's Eve.. tapi ini saya melunasi hutang dengan upload salah satu resep andalan..hihihi..

Yang mana merupakan jenis masakan - semua orang suka.. karena bikinnya praktis...tiss....

Well, this is it... :


Ayam Bumbu Bali

Bahan2 : 

1 ekor ayam dipotong sedang 
perasan dari 2 jeruk nipis 
1 sdt garam 

Bumbu halus : 

6 siung bawang merah 
3 siung bawang putih
2 cm jahe 
1 cm laos
12 cabe merah keriting 
6 cabe rawit setan
6 kemiri

Bumbu lainnya : 

3 batang serai
3 lembar daun salam 
2 sdm gula aren
2 sdm kecap manis
1 sdt garam 
1/2 sdt lada 
2 sdm saus tomat 
minyak untuk menumis 

Cara membuatnya : 

1. Ayam dicuci bersih, lalu dilumuri air jeruk nipis dan garam - sisihkan 
2. Ulek semua bumbu halus 
3. Panaskan minyak - masukkan bumbu halus, serai dan salam. Tumis sampai wangi. 
4. masukkan ayam, aduk2 sampai ayam terkena lumuran bumbu.. 
5. Tambahkan kurang llebih 2,5 gelas air 
6. Setelah air tinggal separo, tambahkan seluruh bumbu yang belum dimasukkan.. kecilkan api. 
7. Biarkan meresap 

Well, sekian untuk sementara ...

Semoga manfaat yaaa...

#salambumbubali

Sebuah nama - seribu cerita .. departures and departures

Dear Readers...

I think the story continues...

Baru saja saya selesai posting Departure 1 and Departure 2 ..

Dan saya kembali mendengar berita yang sebenarnya tidak terlalu mengagetkan saja, but it broke my heart too...

Another good friend is leaving the group..

#hikz..

Iya.. ini dia orangnya.. .



......


Title beliau sih ya.. GA alias Miss Rempong.. persis seperti saya.. But she is one of the kindest human being that i've ever come accross in life..

Sincere, humble, full of endless laughter - sampe kadang gw suka mikir.. nih anak koplak ato gila ato mislek ya.. #sowwiieee erlinong.. #yopyuhtodemeks..

Anyhow, bekerjasama dengannya selama 4 tahun, meskipun sering kali dilakukan secara tidak langsung karena kebetulan kami bekerja pada 2 Business Unit yang berbeda...
Kesan pertama saya, waktu bertemu dengannya - Duh.. nih anak dangdut amat... tapi ternyata hatinya baiiiiiikkkk banget nget nget... .

I cant hardly remember that i've came accross her kind, so far..
We've worked in so many events.. dan dia selalu manggil gw dengan sebutan 'Bu Dosen"..

I wouldnt mind sih, secara saya emang agak2 strict ketimbang yang lainnya..

Hmm...

You know, i really am lousy when it comes to write some goodbye post...
Its just soo many things to tell.. and somehow i just dont know how to cope with the emptiness within...

Its just unpleasant..

But life goes on.. dan pastinya, I will sail into another ocean, just like her.
Im trying to gear up everything, now..

Last but not least... .

Thank you dear.. for being such a lovely friend that always around..
Thank you for sharing your laughter, your crazy yet brilliant thought...
Thank you...

A simple writing is never enough to express how you are going to be missed....
I  miss you already...


Hopefully, our lines cross in the future..
All the best for your future endeavour...

xoxoxoxo....

Shall we move on ?? - another 'office' story

Dear Readers...

Felt like yesterday when i upload ini and ini juga ...

Those links are for my two wonderfull bosses who left for another ocean.. :(..

Last night, i stayed a few hours more to finish several things that i left behind from last week.
When i was typing and checking on figures... somehow i felt that things are soo quiet.. .
At a sudden, i felt that there's an empty hole around.. a feeling of lost..

A few months ago, i might will still having both them doing a few things with me.. checking on figures or whatever task - ... Now, It was only me..

Long time ago, i actually told you that i feel lost in here.. now, its even worse..

I miss a friendly gesture, a smiley hello, or just a sweet morning greetings..
I miss a solution giving for a cul-de-sac situation
I miss a small chit-chat without having prejudices when something arisen
To be truth.. i miss them.. :(

I know its unfair to say that things are different..
Off course..

Was it just me who tend to see things in different angle..
Was it just me who thinks that things are a bit shaky

Well, its probably me..
It might be just my silly thinking..
Hope that everything will do just fine...

Sometimes, the hardest part isn't letting go.. but rather learning to start over..
And.. i think.. i need to start doing so..

Now.. :|